When things don’t go your way, how do you handle it?
I’ve always been a control freak by nature. It’s something that I have to fight against on a daily basis. I so envy the people that can just go through life without a care. People that can deviate from any plan at a moments notice without the slightest heart palpitation.
When things don’t go my way, I feel like an epic failure. Like my master plan has come crashing down before my very eyes (dramatic, I know). I get emotional. Sad and/or angry depending on the catastrophe. My mind swirls with bits of self-doubt, worry, and the shoulda, woulda, couldas. All the things I could have done to have prevented this disaster.
And once I solve the problem and things get back on track. I’m filled with relief. With instant joy. The imaginary weight is lifted off my shoulders. And at last I can breathe again and hold my head up high.
Until the next time…